I've gotten confirmation from friends and family that they can hang out on my birthday video chat. Waiting on one last sister (she would be the one trailing behind). Truth be told I never expected this group of people to interact outside of my wedding (that covid canceled).
TWO THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (SPECIFIC)
1. I've talked briefly about my adopted family here, but I will say I'm grateful they give me my space. I tend to live on the outer edge but they never treat me less than when I lived with them. I'm grateful that I still have a place in the family even after long silences.
2. I could say the same about my oldest friends so I will. I've known some of these guys now for ... at least 16 years if not more? Longer ago than when I was adopted, which is always weird to wrap my head around. "You there, friend, you predate my meeting my family." Tis weird.
ONE THING THAT WENT WELL DURING THE DAY
Let's get goofy: Cassie and I started the truly daunting task of catching up on 15-ish episodes of "Critical Role Campaign 3". I'll always love the show but damn those episodes are long as hell. Felt good to start chipping away at it (not that I'm forgetting the "The Dice Girls".
ONE ABSOLUTELY CRITICAL ACTION ITEM FOR THE DAY
Not sexy but the living room has gotten swamped in boxes, bins, crates, and vacuum seal bags that are all in desperate need of organizing. Cassie is much better at organizing than I am. Growing up my biological father just taught me to shove everything in boxes and go.
WHATEVER IS ON MY MIND
I'll be occupied with my birthday celebrations for a few days. It really is the first time I invited pre-adoption friends, adopted siblings, college friends, and even post-college friends to all hangout. It's like looking at the strata of a mountain to see the passage of time.
It's scary because it means I'm opening myself up to the person I used to be, which means an edgelord who looked at "crossing the line" as a chance to practice my long jump. But, that was still me. I'm glad I've grown (Cassie helped) and I trust that everyone else is growing too.
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