Good morning, y'all! I guess I'm in a pretty good mood this morning which is ... wild. Whatever will I do with this newfound motivation and joy in my heart? <smash cut to playing Elden Ring> ... Yeah that checks out.
TWO THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (SPECIFIC)
1. I reached out to a friend yesterday. I am friends with him and his daughter. Or I am friends with her and her father. I am square in the middle between their ages so it's sometimes weird, but I'm grateful for him. He's a good dude and it was good to catch up.
2. I'm grateful for the Elden Ring lore community. I just love how in-depth they go and how resourceful they are. I don't know if I could ever write something that ignited people's imaginations (and let's face it, obsessiveness) but it's certainly a benchmark to aim for.
ONE THING THAT WENT WELL DURING THE DAY
Yesterday was pretty mild, all things considered. I didn't get to any writing but ... yeah, I dunno. Outside of that, it was a mellow day where I played some "Elden Ring", went for my walk, and had chicken for dinner. Felt like a good reset even if I feel kinda guilty for it.
ONE ABSOLUTELY CRITICAL ACTION ITEM FOR THE DAY
This might sound goofy, but I want to sit down and figure out what the hell is going on with my writer's block. I haven't been this blocked since my 2010. When my laptop got stolen, Dad had a stroke, I got dumped, and ended up in a hospital explaining I wasn't suicidal.
WHATEVER IS ON MY MIND
Okay, so now what's on my mind is trying to figure out why I'm so blocked. Like, I'm unemployed. The world is on fire. Covid is still a thing. I'm finally processing some of my trauma in therapy. I ... am starting to realize why I might be blocked. I'm a fucking mess, folks.
I want to throw myself at a project and commit but my brain can't stop racing all the time because I feel like my life is crumbling. And I don't know what to do about it. Just keep applying for jobs? Try and get to a more stable place where I can be creative again? Cry?
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