Hey, all (and a specific hallooo to @TheDiceGirls). Later post than usual. I could lie and say it was the result of careful planning but today just kinda got away from me. Right now I'm just waiting on a D&D game to start. It is not my favorite thing.
TWO THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (SPECIFIC)
1. I am grateful for nerds who take pop culture and academia seriously to the same degree. I love learning about the metaphysics of the Buffyverse soul or the Ethics of your ideal Starfleet Captain. I love engaging with my favorite media in new ways I'd never considered before.
2. I'm grateful that, as I have gotten older, and gone to therapy and processed and meditated and had a few-too-many Aha realizations from Youtube videos, I have learned to better identify "Hey, this is how I want to be treated," and, "This is not how I want to be treated."
ONE THING THAT WENT WELL DURING THE DAY
I did actually get some of my writing done! I was really happy with it. Might not have been a lot but it's always a good feeling to make any headway. It might not be a great fit for Numenera's world (originally designed for D&D and all that) but I think Cypher system works for it.
ONE ABSOLUTELY CRITICAL ACTION ITEM FOR THE DAY
Right now I need to get through this D&D game without throwing something. We were supposed to start at "5 exact" and as I type this it is 6:54 PM. So. Not my favorite. I actually feel rather disrespected. But I got an apology for the bad time management and I do appreciate that.
WHATEVER IS ON MY MIND
Y'know what, I changed my mind. I logged off. I just Irish Goodbye'd. Took the DM about six minutes to notice I was gone and he called and apologized. Which I genuinely appreciated but still not okay to sit and wait for two hours and still not be anywhere near ready to play.
I hope they have fun tonight without me. I know no malice was intended and I'm trying really hard to be understanding and forgiving, but I do feel disrespected and my feelings are hurt. Just a poorly planned evening and I got the brunt of it.
All best,
Shane Zellow
(he/him)
Boy howdy today's blog took a turn. I try not to write these in the midst of a genuine emotional moment. I prefer to look back from a more stable position for fear of shooting off my mouth and saying something I'll come to regret. But hey, emotions happen. Sometimes you gotta blog about it.
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