I'm tired, folks. In one week I got a supportive message from Monte Cook Games about my prospects in the TTRPG industry, two friends contemplated suicide and reached out, and I dropped out of a discord D&D game after waiting 2 hours for it to start. It all just caught up with me.
TWO THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (SPECIFIC)
1. I am grateful for my therapist giving me permission to message him outside of sessions. I haven't brought myself to do so when a new issue arises but knowing that the option is there is monumentally helpful. It's amazing what you know you can process when you have a safety net.
2. I am grateful for the creative process. Even at a time when I am struggling with ... okay, so a lot, I still have the opportunity to invent strange new worlds. I spent the last day playing with the idea of what a "God of Regression" might look like. It's fantastic.
ONE THING THAT WENT WELL DURING THE DAY
This is gonna sound goofy, but I made it through an episode of the Last of Us. It's not that I'm sensitive to the gore or violence, it's the stress. Raw stress in media is hard for me to process. Honestly, it's getting harder with age. No idea what that's about.
ONE ABSOLUTELY CRITICAL ACTION ITEM FOR THE DAY
Once again, today is mostly over already but let's see, I ... I dunno, folks, today was rough. I had nightmares all night and slept terribly. Stress, amirite? So just getting through my chores and exercising and the generalities of taking care of myself are critical enough.
WHATEVER IS ON MY MIND
This feels like a moment to take stock, maybe sit back and meditate. Actually, that sounds like a good idea, I'll be right back.
Back. I feel a little better, a little more grounded. Whatta week, right? I think I've earned an off day. But hey, I'm still here, I'm still posting.
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