Earlier this week my therapist said, "Why would you be subjecting yourself to this type of relationship?" and it's just stuck with me. All relationships are getting reconsidered through this lens and a few don't have solid answers. That is a weird realization to have.
TWO THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (SPECIFIC)
1. I am grateful for how much has changed in my internal life over the last year or so. Establishing and maintaining boundaries, investing in relationships that invest back, it's all so new and wild and even at a time when my life kinda sucks I still feel better about myself.
2. I am grateful for those friendships and relationships that align with these healthier models of interaction more or less by accident. We might have been winging it but now that I've learned how to maintain healthier relationships ... nothing has had to change in how we interact.
ONE THING THAT WENT WELL DURING THE DAY
I got rejected for another job last night. So! The email got printed and stuck on the wall. I think I've explained in the past, I consider it a thing that went well because, even though I didn't get the job, it means that I'm still putting myself out there and trying.
ONE ABSOLUTELY CRITICAL ACTION ITEM FOR THE DAY
Many months ago now I met up with another alumnus from my school who works in the video game industry. She was super supportive and gave me lots of advice on how to set up my portfolio page. Our schedules haven't lined up for a few months but we should be meeting later today!
WHATEVER IS ON MY MIND
I'm a little anxious to meet up with my advocate in the gaming industry. I'm worried she'll think I've been wasting my time the past few months. So I guess I'm worried about being judged. Which kinda means I'm putting great value on her opinions? Well, maybe I'll meditate beforehand.
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