Hey Gang, I've got my meeting with the nutritionist in an hour. Not sure what to expect? I'm the type to panic, try and overprepare, get overwhelmed, and end up underprepared. It's a vicious cycle. But hey, like I like to say, I'm showing up and doing the work.
TWO THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (SPECIFIC)
1. I am grateful for EMDR. My therapist and I worked through our first practice distressing memory and worked from "I don't belong" to "I'm not alone" in two-and-a-half sessions. Which wasn't even the original target. EMDR is wild, and sometimes very intense. I'm excited to keep going.
2. I am grateful for all those folks that have been in my life and helped me realize I'm not alone. When my father threw me out my adopted family took me in. When professors made me feel unwelcome, my classmates included me. I have friends, I have a partner, I have critique partners, I have siblings, and they're all pretty cool.
ONE THING THAT WENT WELL DURING THE DAY
The EMDR went really well. But it also freed up my brain to focus on writing for the afternoon. I did a quick editing pass of my first five chapters and y'know what? I think it's pretty good. I think they're accomplishing what I wanted them to accomplish.
ONE ABSOLUTELY CRITICAL ACTION ITEM FOR THE DAY
So I have my meeting and I'm supposed to spend time with a friend tonight. In between I'd like to take my first steps into chapter 6, draft 3. Now we get into the structurally aggressive rewrites. Those first five chapters were focused on nailing characterization.
WHATEVER IS ON MY MIND
Today is a bad day to be online. I recently logged off of Twitter on my phone but it's apparently not enough. Can folks get on making a Twitter replacement that doesn't induce existential doomscrolling no matter what you do? Late Stage Capitalism is killing me.
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