Morning, Gang! I had weird ass dreams last night. They involved skydiving, a Halloween mansion party, and ... climbing a balcony in the pouring rain while talking to my old editor about writing. My brain was on one last night. Good news is I actually feel pretty rested so I'll take it.
TWO THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (SPECIFIC)
1. I am grateful for that thar bullet journal I keep talking about. Yesterday was the first day I sat down and started filling it out. Not 100% sure I got it yet but I already feel pretty good about it helping me keep track of things? As much as I love this blog, the analog journal helps.
2. I am grateful for my friend, Nik. They and I bonded the very first day of college orientation as the two hoodlums in the freshman congregation. We ended up chatting yesterday, not a lot, but enough to make me miss them. We had some wild times back in the day. We were a mess.
ONE THING THAT WENT WELL DURING THE DAY
So amidst the bullet journal setup I built up a new Word Count Tracker for my novel. It's a tool I've been using for, Jesus, 7 whole years now. It was originally designed for NaNoWriMo but I've been augmenting it for the better part of a decade now. It's got all the bells and whistles.
ONE ABSOLUTELY CRITICAL ACTION ITEM FOR THE DAY
During my last EMDR session, we identified and reprogrammed the belief "I don't belong" with "I've never been alone," and "I can never succeed," with "I did the best I could considering what I've been through." Intense stuff. I want to bring up my insecurities about *where* I belong.
WHATEVER IS ON MY MIND
What I mean by *where* is just ... I don't know where I belong. Wait that didn't help. When I was in college, in musical theatre class, a note I got was, "Shane, your voice is good, but when you open your mouth it's like you don't know what's going to come out." It's kinda like that.
Does that make sense? If I don't know where I best fit I don't know where to best focus my time. For some reason, I want a niche all of my own. That way I can break out of my niche. Because nobody puts Baby in a corner. On top of that flawless logic, you can't think outside the box without a box.
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